I forgot how bad it was

UGH!  So I asked God to give me re-assurance with the pregnancy, and boy did he come through on this one...I have it all day, just a lingering bit of nausea...when I move around I forget I have it, and then I stop doing stuff and wooooshhh it all comes back and at full force...my hubby is such an amazing man, I told him I was doing the best I could with trying to get the laundry done, and he said take it easy and don't forget to rest and that he'll do the laundry when he gets home from work...

I get to go get my blood taken today to see how my thyroid levels are...hopefully they are alright...and I hope they call right away when then get the results so I can either fill my prescription or get a new one...

well off to eat something so this nausea goes away...

is feeling a little nauseous

I remember with Jonathan I felt nauseous right away after we found out we were pregnant.  This time around it's not every day, which I am not complaining, but I guess I would rather have full blown morning sickness so I still KNOW I'm pregnant without wondering did it stop growing and that's why I'm not sick today? 

I guess there are always things to be worried about, like wondering when or if we are going to get pregnant, and then when you do become pregnant you worry about the baby, is it growing ok in their?  I hope everything is alright! 

I called the nurse again, because the front desk scheduled my first appt. at 11 weeks - that is when I had my first ultrasound with Jonathan...so I am a little confused...I would think they would want to see me as soon as they can to check my thyroid levels to make sure everything is ok there, because that is SUPER important in the first trimester to make sure baby is getting enough thyroid hormone...hopefully she calls back and moves my appt's up...they probably think I'm crazy for calling about every little thing, but I'm not satisfied with that appt. and we are paying for it so why can't it be when I want it to be and when I think it should be done, especially when it was like that with my first...why is it pushed back 3 weeks for my second??

So I have taken 4 tests every day that I have been pregnant except for 2 days and the line keeps getting darker and darker, which makes me happy!  And I think it helps my hubby realize WE ARE indeed pregnant!  It's not a faint line any more folks!

We have told of course my best friend, parents on both sides and our pastor!  Not a lot of people know....

Oh Update on the 1st appt. - Betty actually called me today, and she got my first appt. moved up 2 weeks!!!  She is going to talk to my OB and see if he can also do my first ultrasound on that day as well!  Get two appt. done in one, that sounds good to me!  Otherwise if he can't then she is going to try and work some magic to get me in sooner than Jan. 13th! Lets pray he can do the ultrasound the same day as my nurses appt.

OMG!

I got a BFP this morning, it was faint, but it was positive!  Called the Dr. to see if they want me to come in to confirm, and to check my thyroid levels, hopefully my levels are ok.  I don't want anything bad to happen to this miracle of life! :D I am soo happy, I started crying when I saw the line, I was like am I seeing things again?  I took it to my hubby and was crying like a baby and he thought it was negative AGAIN!  But I shoved it in front of him and said IT'S POSITIVE!!!  THERE IS A LINE THERE!  So it didn't happen right when we wanted to, but it did happen!  Instead of working out today we are going to Perkins to eat!  No more coffee and caffeine for me, but I will eat for 5 again! :D I am soooo happy!  YAY!  Now we need to find a bigger house!  Thank you GOD!

Annoyed by THAT answer

Ok, so my OB's nurse called me back, well actually it was his nurses assistant...(which she's called me back the last couple times, and I don't really know if she just doesn't know how to talk to infertile people or what her deal is, but I don't like her, I want to talk to BETTY, because Betty knows me right when I call, I don't have to give her my birthday and a gazillion other things they need to get my chart, she just KNOWS!) Any way, so Amy (the nurses assistant) called me back with an answer to my questions I had for my OB, ok great, what did he say?  She said well your OB said to wait 2 weeks and take another HPT and if it was still negative then to come in and he'll start you on privera again to start your period, and I asked is this to get them regular again?  She said He didn't go into detail he just said to put you on that to start your period...ummm I am not going to go on privera again for a few months or 6 months, I'm not going to go on it at all unless they give me a "This is why we are doing this" not to "Just start my period" FORGET IT!   Any way if you haven't noticed I am sooo annoyed by this answer, because for 1. it wasn't an answer to any of my questions...and 2. she didn't know anything else to say except for what my OB said, Betty would have come up with SOMETHING as to why he said that...

And this morning was pretty scary, I was walking down the stairs with Jonathan in my arms and slipped and fell almost a full story, so now my arm hurts A LOT!  Jonathan is fine, THANK GOD! But I don't even know if I should be worried about a little bun or not...

waiting game...

I hate this waiting game, the HPT's are not giving me the answer I want/need, AF is not here yet, but feels like it sometimes (past couple days I could have sworn I was going to get it) today I felt nauseous, I don't know what's going on...AM I PREGNANT OR NOT??????  I would really like to know!  So I can either move on with my life and not think about being pregnant for a month to recharge myself, or call the Dr. and start dreaming about how wonderful it is to be pregnant and how it's such a miracle! :D I just wish I knew...I seriously would think a positive would show up at 19DPO I really do...
Not sure if I mentioned this in my last post or not, but I called the doc and OF COURSE he's out of the office yesterday and today, hopefully I get a call back tomorrow from the nurse with his suggestions.  I am really starting to think about going to an actual specialist in endometriosis instead of my reg. OB doc. not that I don't like him, because he's GREAT! He's just waaaaaay busy with patients and bouncing between two hospitals, ugh!
I really wish someone was reading this, I need advice on what to do here.  I don't want to step on my OB's toes and say I want to go somewhere else, because I don't, I just want a specialist to look at my case and see what they think??  Is that so wrong to ask?

I'm so confused

I just don't understand it, took a test again this morning and it's negatory...today would be CD34 18DPO - when will a positive show up?  Shouldn't it have already if I am pregnant???  Why is AF playing this trick on me???  I just don't get it...I just wish I would get my AF so I can stop thinking about IF I am pregnant this month...then take a month off and go back at it again...I guess this is a cards I'm dealt...I am not very optimistic right now, because I have this sense of I am going to get AF today or the next...and if I do get it then I'll have to talk to the Dr. about ANOTHER problem I have, long luetal phase...yay!

please pray for me if you are out there reading this, I need all the prayer I can get.

Brooke

Hmm...I wonder

Well, I still haven't gotten AF yet, today is CD33, and it is not uncommon for me to go 38 days...but with charting, I ovulated earlier than normal this month and so my luetal phase would be ending right about well yesterday....so I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad, because I have been reading about a long luetal phase defect and I just hope I don't have that...I hope that it is something good....like.....pregnancy! But I am going to wait and test tomorrow, and if I don't get a positive then I'll just wait to see if I get it, and if I don't then a call to the Dr. is in order...I really hope I have to call the Dr. to get a confirmation of good news.

hmmm...I'm confused

Ok, so this morning my temp is up again, I don't know what this means....I wish I had someone to talk to about my chart.  Maybe I am pregnant?  But, I don't know.  Hmmm...
I'm so confused right now, I want to know soooooo badly!  But my hubbster says we'll just wait and see....I can't just wait and see...it's apart of me, I think about it constantly when I am by myself, researching charts to see if mine is like a positive pregnancy one...so far mine doesn't correlate with any positive ones :( but I am not giving up hope!  Until AF comes or I get a positive on the test I won't stop thinking about it.
This is driving me insane....maybe a call to the Dr. and see what he says...

too early?

So I peed on another stick this morning, and it was negative :( but I am only 15DPO so it could still be a little early to tell...that's what I keep telling myself, as my temp dropped slightly again this morning...going to take off a day of testing and try again on Saturday, hosting a baby shower that day, maybe with all the baby stuff going on will help the test along....

This morning doing my workout it didn't burn and hurt as bad as the first time, holy cow did it hurt!  I was actually getting into it and feeling good about myself!  And my friend looked over at me and said you look just like those people on the dvd, you have awesome form!  That made me feel great too, not thinking about "IF" I'm pregnant or is Saturday the day the test will magically have two lines??  it was a nice change to think about nothing but exercising!

If anyone is reading this, and have become pregnant after trying for awhile, when did your positive show up??

I don't know when too early is really truly to early, because with Jonathan I had NO clue...the story is:
I was having pain in my left ovary (same pain I felt for awhile until I had the lap done) I thought my endo was back and attaching my ovary to my uterus again, so I made an appointment to see the Dr. and through the whole appointment we were talking about maybe doing another lap and burning off whatever had come back, and doing another round of lupron and such and such...and towards the end the nurse said could you be pregnant?  And I said well there is a possibility... so I took a test and it came out positive, but my OB didn't want us to get our hopes up, because he thought right away that it was ectopic...so we had an ultrasound the next day and THANK GOD it was just fine! 

It's kind of funny because I had to have my OB tell me I was pregnant!  And I believe that if I didn't have the lap done and been on lupron for awhile I would probably not even have 1 child!  He is my miracle at this point!

I know this was going in two different  directions today, sorry!

Not looking very good

I thought this month was it!  I really did, everything was timed PERFECTLY...but I guess not...

My temps are dropping, I thought I would take a test this morning to see if there might, just might be a chance of being pregnant.  And of course the jinx is back, it was negative :( I am going to go get more tests and test every morning until I get my AF just because it could still be too early...I doubt it, but there is still a little hope until AF arrives.

Going to call the Dr. and set up some testing, not sure which tests he will do, last time we visited (about 2 months ago) he said maybe seeing if my tubes are scared shut from the endo.  I really really hope that is not the case!

I was hoping I would have to call him for another reason, pregnancy!  We will just see how the next few days go...I need all the prayer I can get right now!

Thanks for listening!
Brooke

is being hopeful

We are 13DPO and I am either due for my AF in a few days or in about a week.  Not very regular, that is why we are charting and checking CM and taking OPK.

I am not very optimistic about this cycle, although my temps seem to be right where they are supposed to be...every month about this time I get this anxious feeling like I need to pee on a stick but then I do and it's a BFN!  So I wait a few more days and test again....BFN! I am actually starting to think that me taking tests is jinxing me...

I am hopeful for this month like I am every month, because if not this month then next month is a month we are taking off (we don't want our second child born the same day as Jonathan) and going back to the Dr. to discuss more options.

But I guess the bright side is I started working out last week with a great friend, and I did yoga for the first time!  I am so proud of myself!

sorry if this is a little boring, I am new to the blogging world and I will make it better as I get used to this, trust me!