1st appt with the nurse today

since we've been through this before it was just a quick run through of everything...kind of nice the appt. didn't take an hour to go through things...but I did have to have my blood taken and the first labs they take 4 or 5 viles of blood, usually how it goes is they try to get something out of my right arm...can't find the vein, they move to a different part of my right arm and nothing...so they move to my left arm and poke and prod and finally they end up doing the butterfly...well this time I just said lets just start off with the butterfly...my veins are tiny and that big needle won't fit in there!  And it worked wonderfully!  I could watch, I wasn't dizzy, or sweating, I was fine!  Thank you for listening to me :)

so now we just wait and see if we hear back, and hopefully we don't because no news is good news!

We get to see the little bean in January, I can't wait!

Has a cold and it sucks :(

This cold is horrible, I have a headache, and the mucus that is draining into my throat and stomach are making my nausea worse...and I even in the morning gag when I'm trying to brush my teeth and spit, so that makes me visit the throne :( this really sucks...

maybe there's two :/

I know with your second pregnancy you get bigger quicker...I didn't know you would get this big this quick though...man oh man, I look like I'm in my second trimester already and I'm only 8 weeks today!  Could there be two in there? 

Twins don't really run in our family, but I guess there is a slight chance...I hope NOT, I can only handle one baby at a time! 

Plus my son is getting into the terrible twos stage and he's only 16 months old, God please help me! 

Morning sickness was at it's worst this morning...I am definitely looking forward to the not feeling nauseous ALL the time!  Only one more month, hopefully :D

on a side note...I know people are reading this, but I would like to know who...

Had a GREAT weekend!

I went shopping at the Mall of America with 2 friends of mine!  It was soooo much fun!  Not having to worry about anything but finding gifts for people!  I did have to take frequent breaks to go to the bathroom, or sit down, but it was sooo much fun!  I haven't had that much fun in a long long time!

I don't know why when I'm not feeling nauseous I don't just enjoy it while it lasts...I pray it comes back for the reassurance...I am silly I know!  And my friends kept telling me that too! 

I hope this next month goes by quickly, because I want to see and hear my little bean, it won't really be real until I see it on that ultrasound monitor and hear the heartbeat.  And I want to let EVERYONE know!  It's pretty hard trying to keep this secret in...and I've started showing already (since it's my second) so I know people that I haven't seen in a little while if they see me, they will know right away when they look at my baby bump...I guess if they ask I can't lie right?  I don't know what to do, because I really don't want other people besides my family and CLOSE friends to know until we hear the heartbeat...hmmm

What would you do?

why do I over-react?

I know, because I want everything to be fine.  I want a normal healthy pregnancy!  I have been feeling some pain in my left ovary (thinking it is endo trying to start something up, but can't) and then also some pain in lower abdomen while going to the bathroom...TMI I know sorry! 
So I called the Dr. this morning and the nurse said she's not concerned because I'm not doubling over and out of breath, which I wasn't that concerned about it either, just a little concerned...and didn't want it to be an ectopic pregnancy, which after reading I have some symptoms but not all...so I guess I'll just take it easy today and get ready for my big shopping trip tomorrow at the Mall of America!

Everything should be fine!  I still have nausea and I don't think that's going away ANY time soon :D

Oh and pray that the snow stays away so we can leave here when we want to tomorrow morning!  Seriously up to 8 inches of snow...ugh!

Why is it so hard?

We have told close family (except my sis-in-law) and friends, but not EVERYONE!  My dear hubby wants to wait until she is done taking care of some family...and that will probably be around Christmas.  Last time we told everyone at Christmas she hid in her room the rest of the weekend...I don't think she likes me very much, or she used to didn't like me...I don't know why, I did nothing to her, she just hated me from the beginning.  She is getting better, and she loves Jonathan to pieces, but telling her we are pregnant again I am afraid that she'll go back into her hole and hide there for awhile...she is actually talking to me now and acknowledging I am there and alive, whereas before she wouldn't even look at me.  I wish people that had a problem with me would tell me why they have the problem with me...
I mean she hadn't even met me yet and had formed opinions about me, I try to say hi the first time she comes over to her brothers house, and she walks right by and says I'm going to bed and doesn't say hi or introduce herself...OKAY...that makes a person feel good...
And the Christmas we told everyone she was talking to her mom and made her cry, because my husbands sister thinks he's changed since I've been in his life...Ummmmmm he's been the same person since the first day I met him, if anything he's more playful and I don't see that as a bad thing...anywho...sorry for the ranting,  but I just wish some people would grow up!  Oh did I mention she's 32...

be careful what you wish for

Morning Sickness SUCKS!  And I forgot how bad it was with Jonathan...I wanted to feel that sickness again to reassure myself that everything is going ok...ugh!  I don't ever know when it's going to strike, with Jonathan I knew every morning when I woke up and brushed my teeth that's when it would hit, with this one, it's either in the morning when I am brushing my teeth, or about 9 or 10 in the morning and goes away around 2 or so in the afternoon, or it doesn't come until night...so I can't predict when I should eat to minimize it...so far no puking, but the lingering nausea feeling, it's worse this time than last...but it's all for good!!! 

OH! And my nose is not my friend today, everything smells horrible! EVERYTHING!  Even my scentsy, with the scent Christmas Tree smells bad... :( I love that smell...tried making eggs and they smelled rotten, but they aren't! 

I asked for it and I got it!