pet related post

About 7 years ago I rescued a little kitty from a farm, it's mommy got killed by a cyote and I felt sooo bad that I had to take him home.  The town he was born in is called Milesville so I named him Miles for short.  My dad hated that I had brought a cat home, but soon grew attached to him.  I got married and was moving in with my husband after our honeymoon, and was going to bring Miles with me, but he had to be acclimated to a dog and a female cat that my husband and I got when we were engaged.  Miles hated his new sisters, and I figured it would have been too much of a hassle to keep them all separated, plus I didn't know how he would act when we started having children.  I asked my parents if they could keep him, since I (the baby) was moving out, they would still have some part of me still living with them.  They agreed!  Miles is between 6 and 7 years old and was diagnosed with diabetes about 6months to a year ago.  My parents went on vacation this past week and he went to the vet so he could be watched closely.  Miles was doing great until about a few days ago, and took a turn for the worst, wouldn't eat or drink. when my parents got back they had to put him down :( he was so far gone that nothing would help him live.  I hate when pets die, but I guess it's apart of life.  All we have left now are memories.  Goodbye Miles :(  I will love you always and never forget you.

Good news today!

Had my almost 22 week appointment today!  It was a really good appointment.  I addressed my concerns about me thinking I DON'T have gestational diabetes, and told him my numbers and he was very impressed with  them and said I still have to test, but maybe just test every 3 days instead of every day!  So that is good news, it will give my fingers a break!  Most of the time pricking my finger doesn't hurt, but there are sometimes where it does :(

He is keeping my due date the same!  YAY! Because we are doing a baby pool since we aren't finding out what we're having until we have him/her! 

my ultrasound a few weeks ago turned out great! 

Weight gain so far is good!  I know with my son I started gaining A LOT of weight a few weeks from where we are at now, 10lbs in a month! Yikes!  We will definitely try and not let that happen again! 

I also addressed my concern for a "small" baby, and by small I mean under 9lbs (my son was 10lbs) is that the baby will just pop right out!  If my water breaks I don't want to deliver a baby on the way to the hospital which is only 15 mins away, but it could happen!

I am still hopeful for a girl, the heart rate was 150 today! 

We will see what the nutritionists think about me testing every 3 days, since my doctor ordered it...We have that appointment on Thursday.

Is Frustrated

I feel so frustrated right now.  Yesterday and today I feel like a big sob bucket.  I had a headache all yesterday because of too low of blood sugar.  My levels 2 hours after I ate a meal were where I needed to be at my morning sugar level or fasting level.  And too low of blood sugar is bad too, because you get dizzy, and weak..and that's how I felt yesterday. 

Today is a little better, but I am still hungry 45 mins after I eat a meal or a snack.  Today I am eating a little more than what my meal plan calls for, just so my headache doesn't come back and my levels are a little higher, still pretty low, but I don't feel as weak or dizzy. 

We are going to see how this next week goes, and talk to my OB about my frustrations with this meal plan and see what he says, on Tuesday.  And then on Thursday I have my appointment with the dietitian again to see how I'm doing. 

I am getting really depressed about what I CAN'T eat, well I can eat sweets and stuff, but 1 little girl scout cookie is 1 carb choice and there is half my snack.  If I eat that then I'll be hungry again in 10 mins.  so really I can't eat them, unless I want to starve!  I know this is all about wise food choices, and getting the most food for the fewest amount of carbs, which is hard!

I really hope this gets better!  I hate being depressed everyday feeling like I'm being deprived of the foods I want.

You have got to be kidding me!

Ok first of gestational diabetes SUCKS!  I met with an educator and a dietitian this morning, and they put me on a meal plan, which I figured they would.  But seriously, I am eating less now than before I was pregnant, I don't think that's healthy...I'm supposed to eat 300 more calories a day...ummm I'm eating more like 300 less calories. 
My blood sugar levels when  I wake up in the morning before I eat anything should be between 60-75 and my levels 2 hours after I eat should be under 120...well today after lunch it was 60...that is super low after eating food...so I have to be doing something wrong...like not counting the carbs correctly or I don't even know what else. 
I seriously think that if I just cut out the juice I was drinking and just watch a little of what I'm eating then I would be fine!  Telling me I can't have something just makes me want it that much more and makes it more tough. 
One of my friends suggested that after a few days my appetite would lessen because I'm eating less...well yeah, but I don't think I'm eating enough for myself...the baby gets everything it needs.
I guess we'll see how this next week goes....

I bet it would be different

If I was to take my fasting test tomorrow for gestational diabetes, I bet the results would be WAY different.  Just knowing the things I know now, about juice and the HIGH sugar content in it, I wouldn't drink as much as what I was.  I would pass with flying colors, because I haven't had any juice since my appt.  and my baby is not overweight, it's right where it needs to be.  And I've only gained like 10-13lbs. My first pregnancy I already had gained 20-25lbs (what your supposed to gain the WHOLE pregnancy) I don't know...I have thought about calling and seeing if I could take the test again and maybe change their minds, because this is kind of embarrassing even though it's not really my fault, its my placentas fault...and sometimes I just think oh well, I'll just deal with it and eat lots of healthy foods (which I was doing, just not EVERY day) I guess I'll go to my first diabetic appt. and see what it's all about...maybe it will help the whole family eat better in the long run.