Time to End

I am so crazy busy with a toddler and a newborn, I don't have time to write posts.  I will still read your blogs, but just can't find time to write my own.  So I guess this is good-bye for now.

Craziness

3 weeks ago I had a beautiful baby girl!!!!  July 14th we were scheduled for induction, well baby was head up, tried to move her, but she didn't want to move, we got sent home.  Had an apt. the following monday, baby was head down, had another non-stress test, it was irregular (only because of the way the nurse had me laying, but that is a long story)  so we had to have an ultrasound done to make sure baby was doing ok, well baby didn't "practice" breathing (which the ultrasound techs don't always catch the baby "practicing" breathing) but since they didn't see the baby breathing, we had to go to the birth center to be monitored for a couple of hours, and got sent home, because baby had a perfect heart rate and perfect peaks as they like to see.  So we scheduled another induction on the 22nd.  We go in to the birth center, do the ultrasound and baby's head is up AGAIN!!!  Geez, she didn't want to come out!  This time they gave me drugs to help with the pain of the external version, and they got her turned to head down, broke my water, and put a belly band on me and she stayed put. YAY! 7:20PM rolls around and baby's heart rate drops dramatically, a gazillion dr.s and nurses come in the room.  so the nurses put me on my left side, baby's heart rate drops even more, nurses roll me back to my right side, baby's heart rate slowly comes back up to normal (thank GOD!) baby just moved further down into the canal and pinched the cord a little.  7:50 rolls around and I feel the urge to push.  7:55 our beautiful daughter was born!  And it's been crazy ever since!  With a 2 year old and a 3 week old, oh boy it's a challenge sometimes.  Especially when I'm nursing and our son gets into anything and everything.  But I wouldn't change it for the world!  After being diagnosed with Endo 4 years ago I didn't think I would be sitting here with 2 miracles of life today.  I feel truly blessed!  And hopefully our next one doesn't take as long as #2

well, this sucks!

No baby yesterday, they sent us home.  Baby just did not want to cooperate and stay head down when the dr. came in.  We attempted to move it twice, and I KNOW it was head down after we played music for it, but the dr. didn't come into the room until AN HOUR LATER!!!  And by that time, the baby had moved back to head up :( so that's when he sent us home.

I have another apt. Monday to check on position and talk about induction again or c-section.  If baby's head is down in the office, I want him to break my water right there and then I can walk over to the birth center!  Hopefully I have that option, it's my body right?  I'm the paying "customer"

Been asking for lots of prayers that the baby does the right thing and goes head down and stays head down!!!

CRAZINESS!!!

Ok, so I had an apt. last Thursday, everything went well, according to plan, wait until I go into labor and go to the hospital.

We had an ultrasound yesterday to check baby's weight, and to see if it's healthy.
Baby is a shocking 6lbs 8oz (I have only gained 20lbs this pregnancy) wowza, that's TINY!  Hopefully the ultrasound is off a bit and the baby is a little bigger than that. Everything else looks GREAT the baby scored an 8 out of an 8 on kidney function, heart function, breathing, and so on.  BUT!  Baby was breech, head up, NOT what we wanted to see or hear...I started doing things to help the baby move head down like playing music near my lower abdomen to make the baby move head down again...it likes doing flips!

Today we had an apt. to go over the results of the ultrasound, and for my weekly check up.  And to hopefully hear the heart beating telling us the head is down..but he did an ultrasound and said baby was oblique, but moved the baby to head down, and it seems like baby is wanting to stay head down for now!  And we scheduled an induction for Thursday...so put my mind at ease about baby flipping on me so much...so that's that and we will be a family of 4 on Thursday!

Pray baby stays head down!

Apt. went well

I am still concerned about not gaining enough weight, only up 18lbs!  Doc says it's just fine though, because I am gaining weight.  I have steered away from my "diet" a few days last week, because I wanted to put on more weight, been eating more ice cream...shhh!  

Baby is kind of diagonal, but head is down, so half breech, hopefully that changes in the coming weeks.

We get to see the little bean again on July 11th, so we'll get to see how big he/she is, and see fluid levels, and to see if baby's head is in the down position.

Baby's heart rate was in the mid to upper 140's jumping from 143 to 148, so still hopes for a girl :)

going to start my non-stress tests at 36 weeks, and I think I'll have them weekly until the baby is born.

all in all everything is going well with the pregnancy, but today I seriously dislocated my tail bone, and it's very hard to walk, all just by taking the dogs out to go potty!  I hope it heals quickly!

another appointment in 2 weeks!

33 weeks!!!

I am so sick of people saying "You're so TINY", With my son, I was on the other end of the spectrum being HUGE, and people would say "OMG!  You have HOW many more months left"??  I think it gets to me a little more though this time, because sometimes I feel like people don't think I eat, when in all reality, I eat MORE, I just choose my foods wisely this time around, I pick an apple with peanut butter over a candy bar or ice cream, or I'll eat more veggies for dinner instead of loading up on pasta...Yes, it's because I have to stick to somewhat of a diet, and not everyone knows that I'm gestational diabetic, but they don't need to know!  Yes, I've only gained 17 1/2 lbs so far, but I know my baby is eating healthy, and that's better for him or her than being bigger and packing the fat on the baby! 

The last couple appointments the heart rate has dropped from in the 150's to the high 130's mid 140's, I'm still hoping for a girl, and I slip every so often saying she, but a part of me is thinking boy, because the heart rate is now how my son's heart rate was.  I guess we'll see.

All in all, Doc said I was doing great, and my thyroid levels were still normal! 

Only 7 more weeks!

Phew!

my dr. apt. went VERY well today, had some questions, got some answers, and now I feel good about everything.  I asked if my T4 levels were good along with my TSH levels, and they've been really good, last time a little on the high side, but still in normal range...I have to get my blood tested again in the next couple days, hopefully it's still in the normal range! 

I also asked if I would get another ultrasound because of my hypo and my gest. diabetes, and he said I would get another one for the diabetes, but not for the hypo, which makes sense, because the most important time for your levels to be in the good is at the beginning of the pregnancy and everything looked fine on our last ultrasound...so I will get to see our little bean again around 36-38 weeks which is in 7-8 weeks!!!  Plus he said I would have gotten an ultrasound around then anyway because baby J was 10lbs when born, so he wants to see how big this baby is a few weeks from delivery. 

it's so nice to hear that my OB is not worried about my diabetes at this point...and that I'm a person that he trusts with my numbers!  I have only gained 14lbs so far, and he wants me to gain another 10 in the next 10 weeks.  At this rate hopefully I do gain the 10lbs, because that would put me at 24lbs for the whole pregnancy, and he wants me to be at 25-40, but he says I am still good for weight gain. 

I don't have anything to worry about, for now! 

On rotation!

I can't believe I am 28 1/2 weeks pregnant.  I Had my first apt. with one of the other doctors today, and he used an antique doppler, so it doesn't tell you the heart rate, but that's alright, he said it sounded great! 
He also said I am measuring a week behind, but that's how I've been measuring all a long from day 1, but that is also normal, or ok.  I have put on 14lbs, up 2lbs from my last visit, which is good!  That means I'm gaining the 1lb a week needed, and this is even swaying from my "diet" my numbers have been all normal, so I figured I could eat a little more and see what happened...and you know what?  It's been fine, my glucose levels have been the same!

on a side note, the weather has been less than acceptable for me this time of year.  I thought it was spring, not winter still!  Temps being in the 30's and low 40's isn't spring!  I would love to be able to go for more walks with my son, but it would have to warm up 15 degrees for it to be an enjoyable walk!

I have another apt. in 2 weeks and I get my thyroid levels checked again, hopefully they are still normal!  I have been doing some research online and it looks like I have been pretty lucky in that department, because, most pregnancies with the mother that has hypothyroidism has to have her medication upped sometimes 20 to 50%, I haven't had to have mine changed AT ALL!  But I do wonder if I will get to see my little bean again, to make sure everything is ok!  I guess we'll have to wait and see!

Had 26 week appt. today!

I've been wondering if I've been gaining enough weight, with having to count carbs because they are afraid I'm going to have another 10lb baby!  I've only gained 12lbs so far, and researching on the internet, I know bad me!  the websites I've looked at say I should be up around 18lbs by now!  But, I asked the Dr. today about the weight gain and he said I was perfect!  So, I guess I'll just eat the same as I've been eating...I have been cheating a little too though with eating a little more sweets, I go crazy if I can't have sweets with this pregnancy. 

Heart rate is still up in the 150's, so there is still hope that this is a girl!! 

Going back to the weight thing, It feels sooo different this time when people say, oh you're still so tiny, when with baby J, I was about ready to pop at this point and people were like you have how many more months??  And said my goodness you're huge!  But I guess all in all, it's what the Dr. says.  If he said I'm gaining the right amount of weight, that's all that matters! 

pet related post

About 7 years ago I rescued a little kitty from a farm, it's mommy got killed by a cyote and I felt sooo bad that I had to take him home.  The town he was born in is called Milesville so I named him Miles for short.  My dad hated that I had brought a cat home, but soon grew attached to him.  I got married and was moving in with my husband after our honeymoon, and was going to bring Miles with me, but he had to be acclimated to a dog and a female cat that my husband and I got when we were engaged.  Miles hated his new sisters, and I figured it would have been too much of a hassle to keep them all separated, plus I didn't know how he would act when we started having children.  I asked my parents if they could keep him, since I (the baby) was moving out, they would still have some part of me still living with them.  They agreed!  Miles is between 6 and 7 years old and was diagnosed with diabetes about 6months to a year ago.  My parents went on vacation this past week and he went to the vet so he could be watched closely.  Miles was doing great until about a few days ago, and took a turn for the worst, wouldn't eat or drink. when my parents got back they had to put him down :( he was so far gone that nothing would help him live.  I hate when pets die, but I guess it's apart of life.  All we have left now are memories.  Goodbye Miles :(  I will love you always and never forget you.

Good news today!

Had my almost 22 week appointment today!  It was a really good appointment.  I addressed my concerns about me thinking I DON'T have gestational diabetes, and told him my numbers and he was very impressed with  them and said I still have to test, but maybe just test every 3 days instead of every day!  So that is good news, it will give my fingers a break!  Most of the time pricking my finger doesn't hurt, but there are sometimes where it does :(

He is keeping my due date the same!  YAY! Because we are doing a baby pool since we aren't finding out what we're having until we have him/her! 

my ultrasound a few weeks ago turned out great! 

Weight gain so far is good!  I know with my son I started gaining A LOT of weight a few weeks from where we are at now, 10lbs in a month! Yikes!  We will definitely try and not let that happen again! 

I also addressed my concern for a "small" baby, and by small I mean under 9lbs (my son was 10lbs) is that the baby will just pop right out!  If my water breaks I don't want to deliver a baby on the way to the hospital which is only 15 mins away, but it could happen!

I am still hopeful for a girl, the heart rate was 150 today! 

We will see what the nutritionists think about me testing every 3 days, since my doctor ordered it...We have that appointment on Thursday.

Is Frustrated

I feel so frustrated right now.  Yesterday and today I feel like a big sob bucket.  I had a headache all yesterday because of too low of blood sugar.  My levels 2 hours after I ate a meal were where I needed to be at my morning sugar level or fasting level.  And too low of blood sugar is bad too, because you get dizzy, and weak..and that's how I felt yesterday. 

Today is a little better, but I am still hungry 45 mins after I eat a meal or a snack.  Today I am eating a little more than what my meal plan calls for, just so my headache doesn't come back and my levels are a little higher, still pretty low, but I don't feel as weak or dizzy. 

We are going to see how this next week goes, and talk to my OB about my frustrations with this meal plan and see what he says, on Tuesday.  And then on Thursday I have my appointment with the dietitian again to see how I'm doing. 

I am getting really depressed about what I CAN'T eat, well I can eat sweets and stuff, but 1 little girl scout cookie is 1 carb choice and there is half my snack.  If I eat that then I'll be hungry again in 10 mins.  so really I can't eat them, unless I want to starve!  I know this is all about wise food choices, and getting the most food for the fewest amount of carbs, which is hard!

I really hope this gets better!  I hate being depressed everyday feeling like I'm being deprived of the foods I want.

You have got to be kidding me!

Ok first of gestational diabetes SUCKS!  I met with an educator and a dietitian this morning, and they put me on a meal plan, which I figured they would.  But seriously, I am eating less now than before I was pregnant, I don't think that's healthy...I'm supposed to eat 300 more calories a day...ummm I'm eating more like 300 less calories. 
My blood sugar levels when  I wake up in the morning before I eat anything should be between 60-75 and my levels 2 hours after I eat should be under 120...well today after lunch it was 60...that is super low after eating food...so I have to be doing something wrong...like not counting the carbs correctly or I don't even know what else. 
I seriously think that if I just cut out the juice I was drinking and just watch a little of what I'm eating then I would be fine!  Telling me I can't have something just makes me want it that much more and makes it more tough. 
One of my friends suggested that after a few days my appetite would lessen because I'm eating less...well yeah, but I don't think I'm eating enough for myself...the baby gets everything it needs.
I guess we'll see how this next week goes....

I bet it would be different

If I was to take my fasting test tomorrow for gestational diabetes, I bet the results would be WAY different.  Just knowing the things I know now, about juice and the HIGH sugar content in it, I wouldn't drink as much as what I was.  I would pass with flying colors, because I haven't had any juice since my appt.  and my baby is not overweight, it's right where it needs to be.  And I've only gained like 10-13lbs. My first pregnancy I already had gained 20-25lbs (what your supposed to gain the WHOLE pregnancy) I don't know...I have thought about calling and seeing if I could take the test again and maybe change their minds, because this is kind of embarrassing even though it's not really my fault, its my placentas fault...and sometimes I just think oh well, I'll just deal with it and eat lots of healthy foods (which I was doing, just not EVERY day) I guess I'll go to my first diabetic appt. and see what it's all about...maybe it will help the whole family eat better in the long run.

well that sucks!

I got the call this morning, my ob's nurse said "you have gestational diabetes"  oh yay!  I also got the call from the diabetic specialists and got my appt. set up. And she said one thing I could do to start the process is to cut out juice and soda...ok well I didn't drink much soda any way, but JUICE?  I know it is high in sugar, but I thought it was GOOD sugar. I drink A LOT of juice, I thought I was  doing me and the baby good, buy drinking juice, I guess not!  Oh well.  So I told my hubby he's going to have to eat on the diet I'm put on too, because I'm not making two different meals.  He made a sad face, but it will be for the better.  It will make us to eat healthier and not just eat what we want to eat when we want to eat it.  In a way it's kind of funny, because normally when I'm not pregnant I CAN eat and drink whatever I want whenever I want and not gain a pound, but when I'm pregnant it's WAY different, I guess.

So I guess I'll just add this to my list of problems...

I really hope not!

When I was pregnant with Baby J they had the glucose test around 28 weeks and then if you failed you had to do a 3 hr. fasting glucose test.  I did fail, but only because they told me I could eat whatever I wanted before the test, so I ate leftovers which was mostly mashed potatoes, so of course that's all going to turn into sugar and then the sugar drink on top of that will set me over!  So I had to do the 3 hr. fasting test, which I passed, so I did not have gestational diabetes. 

This pregnancy, they have new standards so they do a fasting test between 16-19 weeks with no sugar drink, just fast and get your blood taken the next day...and they also have new standards of what is "normal" well what the American college of obstetrics and gynecology thinks is normal is a glucose level of 92 after fasting, well my number is 96, but my gynecologist signed off on it, so the nurse said he either isn't concerned with it or he just didn't see the number....so I have to wait until tomorrow to hear what he says.  I really hope I don't have gestational diabetes, that would suck!

On a good note my thyroid levels are still in good range!  YAY! 

still hope for a girl!

Just when I was starting to think maybe this baby is another boy, the heartbeat today is still giving me hope for a girl!  154, still pretty high, I know with my son his heart rate dropped down into the high 130's low 140's at the second appt.  so yay for that!  We have an ultrasound on the 24th and I'm soooo excited to see our little bean again! I was so hungry this morning, they had me fast for the glucose test, and telling a pregnant woman that she can't eat, is torture!  I hope it comes out fine and I hope my thyroid levels are fine, I guess we'll see. 

always on my mind

being hypothyroid and being pregnant I always wonder if my levels are good enough for the baby, they have been fine so far, but it's always in the back of my mind, am I drinking enough water to absorb the pill, or am I waiting long enough after I take it to eat, and I wonder if my baby will end up having this disease too and have to take pills their whole life.  I get my levels checked again in a couple of weeks, hopefully they are still in the good range.  And we get to hear the heartbeat again, I always look forward to that, for some reassurance.  I have felt the baby move a little, but can't wait until the kicks and punches are more constant. 

One other random thought...being a stay at home mom is the best, and I think is making this pregnancy better all around...if I get tired, I just take a break and as long a break I want, dishes and laundry can wait!  I wish it was mandatory 1 year maternity leave in the U.S. for those working mommies.

Mind at ease!

Ok!  I don't have any doubts any longer!  We had our first ultrasound yesterday, and the baby was moving around like crazy!  Heart rate was 175bmp, I know it's still too early to tell, but that high number gives me hope that it is a girl!  I really hope so!  We are super excited!  I hope this pregnancy goes quickly! 

Holy Cow!

12 weeks already!  Geez time is flying by.  We have only told a few people, but haven't announced it to the world yet...still waiting to see the little bean next week.  I wish it were closer...it feels like such an eternity, it will be our very first ultrasound, soooooo excited! 

nausea has gone away some, still nauseous in the afternoon and at night before bed, but that gives me an excuse to eat an ice cream cone before bed :D that probably hasn't helped me with my weight gain...luckily the nurse recorded my weight after I had already gained 6lbs in the first 3 weeks!  I look like I am 16 weeks pregnant, but it could be because it's our second child.

I can't stop thinking about our appointment next week!